What Happen To My Career : Being A Freelance Worker
As I write this post, there are still some of my friends busy applying job here and there. And also, preparing for the biggest and most crucial moment ever of a job seeker life: CPNS Test. I really admire all of my friend and all the job seeker who is so passionate about this event and even preparing years before it held. But I guess here I am, who decided not to apply because I already got 2 freelance jobs that feel like a full-time job. I am, really, beyond grateful for this opportunity given to me.
I do realize that each of us has been asked a lot about this. Do you work for your passion? Or do you work for a decent living? And according to popular opinion, to add up the perfect idea to a decent living imagination in our head, we should do a full-time job. And I admit, I want that too. But when this opportunity came to me like a state of grace in my dark tunnel of life, I took it with a lot of thoughts. As a member of Libra who always strives for a balance in life, this is so unexpected of me to choose a different way from all my same age friend. Living a different life choice will always bring you burden, they said. But trust me, it's never that bad.
I haven't mentioned about all of my friends question regarding my current job, they frequently ask, "What are you doing for a living now?" "Why are you not updating about your work life to your social media?" " What do you do during the day? You look like you have a lot of time to be happy". I really want to answer all of these questions here in my platform and why I chose my current job.
The reason why I chose being freelance is that I haven't had enough experience in the digital world. I have like zero experience being a social media specialist so I have to start from the bottom. I feel like I'm not enough. Moreover, working in a fast paced work environment is contrary to me who is actually a little slow in grasping lessons. Another reason is, maybe more like an excuse to me, being a freelance worker makes my life even, at a balance. This is so unexpected. Because I can focus on what I am doing, and learning step by step how to achieve my dream in a less-stressing way. I don't want to be stress about how a job drives my body sick and my heart heavy. I care about my mental health, and I choose to have a quiet life by working freelance, as for now. With my current situation that allows me to choose, I am beyond grateful. Because not all people get this privilege.
Being at home most of the times also get me a more leisure time and I can have my own workspace too. More leisure time means I can do another thing to level up my skill. And to add up, I have my own personalized schedule in a day, or even in a week by waking up early and write a journal every morning (not an art journal, of course). Like setting 10 a.m to 6 p.m as my work time, setting 10 a.m as my time to reading all my emails and chats in Whatsapp and Slack, start to creating daily content every Monday in a week, meeting on Monday and Wednesday, all of it is based on my preference, but still with my boss consent.
I keep thinking how it will turn out if my contract ended, am I still looking for another freelance because I already fell into the hole of comfort life? Because I do admit, this job is really comfortable to the point I can't even complain about it. Everything is so smooth, going as it planned. And I'm afraid, if it continues that way, I will never be ready to have a full-time job. And like for now, I feel like I am going to a straight path and I have seen nothing but a straight road. Everyone has their own worries, right?
I mobilize twice a week, for a meeting with my two bosses. And surprisingly, it's not tiring at all. This is really the weirdest, why am I not tired at all? I question this a lot to the point I wonder why am I don't get sick because of commuting from Wonogiri to Solo twice, even thrice a week. All I did was thinking about the why and hows until one day I realize that it is because: putting passion beyond all my reasons. It is not a perfect job, of course. I have to monitor all my client's social media, think about how to make it work on their own platform, have to create content for each client, contacting some influencer to do my client's campaign, have to take care all of the invoices and collaboration agreement, and many more. It gives me a headache, of course. Sometimes I want to take a break because I always staring at both my laptop and phone alternately. But my mouth can't complain, my breath won't sigh, my heart never really felt heavy, and my brain is just working as I wish it would be. Isn't it magical, how passion, sincerity and a little bit of self-confidence can change the way your body works for you?
I might offend some of my same age friend who took a job they don't like because they have no choice. But as you can see, there is nothing in life without struggle. A person with a passion for mansion seems content and enjoy all of their works, but we do have some insecurities and struggles too. Because I do believe each of us has different ability to work out our insecurities and face our struggle.
To know what it's like to be at peace, to always strive for perfection in all of my work, to do everything wholeheartedly, to always be open to new challenges, meet new people every day... All of these are feelings I would never want to be replaced.
As for now, being grateful is my goals. This opportunity is amazing, beyond everything. But every once in a while too, I am, still longing for a what-so-called perfect job from our parents's point of view: a full-time job. But it's always important too, to care about your happiness first. And what I call being grateful is the fact that my happiness is also my parents. They let me choose everything as I am now a grown-up woman. They believe that I can make the right decision in my life. How can I complain, again?
Every job has its own struggle. I do believe this step is just a phase to make us more experienced, and professional, no matter what job you do. We have our own struggle but aren't we all set happiness as our life goals? We just have a different way to make after it. Maybe my happiness is doing a job with a touch of passion. Maybe your happiness is a decent living with a constant monthly salary. Maybe your happiness is to give your best to help people. We try different things, to have the same goal: happiness. Please, your happiness matters 💖
I do realize that each of us has been asked a lot about this. Do you work for your passion? Or do you work for a decent living? And according to popular opinion, to add up the perfect idea to a decent living imagination in our head, we should do a full-time job. And I admit, I want that too. But when this opportunity came to me like a state of grace in my dark tunnel of life, I took it with a lot of thoughts. As a member of Libra who always strives for a balance in life, this is so unexpected of me to choose a different way from all my same age friend. Living a different life choice will always bring you burden, they said. But trust me, it's never that bad.
I haven't mentioned about all of my friends question regarding my current job, they frequently ask, "What are you doing for a living now?" "Why are you not updating about your work life to your social media?" " What do you do during the day? You look like you have a lot of time to be happy". I really want to answer all of these questions here in my platform and why I chose my current job.
The reason why I chose being freelance is that I haven't had enough experience in the digital world. I have like zero experience being a social media specialist so I have to start from the bottom. I feel like I'm not enough. Moreover, working in a fast paced work environment is contrary to me who is actually a little slow in grasping lessons. Another reason is, maybe more like an excuse to me, being a freelance worker makes my life even, at a balance. This is so unexpected. Because I can focus on what I am doing, and learning step by step how to achieve my dream in a less-stressing way. I don't want to be stress about how a job drives my body sick and my heart heavy. I care about my mental health, and I choose to have a quiet life by working freelance, as for now. With my current situation that allows me to choose, I am beyond grateful. Because not all people get this privilege.
Being at home most of the times also get me a more leisure time and I can have my own workspace too. More leisure time means I can do another thing to level up my skill. And to add up, I have my own personalized schedule in a day, or even in a week by waking up early and write a journal every morning (not an art journal, of course). Like setting 10 a.m to 6 p.m as my work time, setting 10 a.m as my time to reading all my emails and chats in Whatsapp and Slack, start to creating daily content every Monday in a week, meeting on Monday and Wednesday, all of it is based on my preference, but still with my boss consent.
 |
| Working in a home situation, having my own workspace is a must. Messy, very messy... |
I keep thinking how it will turn out if my contract ended, am I still looking for another freelance because I already fell into the hole of comfort life? Because I do admit, this job is really comfortable to the point I can't even complain about it. Everything is so smooth, going as it planned. And I'm afraid, if it continues that way, I will never be ready to have a full-time job. And like for now, I feel like I am going to a straight path and I have seen nothing but a straight road. Everyone has their own worries, right?
I mobilize twice a week, for a meeting with my two bosses. And surprisingly, it's not tiring at all. This is really the weirdest, why am I not tired at all? I question this a lot to the point I wonder why am I don't get sick because of commuting from Wonogiri to Solo twice, even thrice a week. All I did was thinking about the why and hows until one day I realize that it is because: putting passion beyond all my reasons. It is not a perfect job, of course. I have to monitor all my client's social media, think about how to make it work on their own platform, have to create content for each client, contacting some influencer to do my client's campaign, have to take care all of the invoices and collaboration agreement, and many more. It gives me a headache, of course. Sometimes I want to take a break because I always staring at both my laptop and phone alternately. But my mouth can't complain, my breath won't sigh, my heart never really felt heavy, and my brain is just working as I wish it would be. Isn't it magical, how passion, sincerity and a little bit of self-confidence can change the way your body works for you?
I might offend some of my same age friend who took a job they don't like because they have no choice. But as you can see, there is nothing in life without struggle. A person with a passion for mansion seems content and enjoy all of their works, but we do have some insecurities and struggles too. Because I do believe each of us has different ability to work out our insecurities and face our struggle.
To know what it's like to be at peace, to always strive for perfection in all of my work, to do everything wholeheartedly, to always be open to new challenges, meet new people every day... All of these are feelings I would never want to be replaced.
As for now, being grateful is my goals. This opportunity is amazing, beyond everything. But every once in a while too, I am, still longing for a what-so-called perfect job from our parents's point of view: a full-time job. But it's always important too, to care about your happiness first. And what I call being grateful is the fact that my happiness is also my parents. They let me choose everything as I am now a grown-up woman. They believe that I can make the right decision in my life. How can I complain, again?
Every job has its own struggle. I do believe this step is just a phase to make us more experienced, and professional, no matter what job you do. We have our own struggle but aren't we all set happiness as our life goals? We just have a different way to make after it. Maybe my happiness is doing a job with a touch of passion. Maybe your happiness is a decent living with a constant monthly salary. Maybe your happiness is to give your best to help people. We try different things, to have the same goal: happiness. Please, your happiness matters 💖
Comments
Post a Comment